feel so sad. haiz. cos many tinks happened. dun wish to type here. ...
work was okie okie in de mornin. nt sae fun/relax. but oso nt very sian. purposely walk lik very slow. so tt i will reach on time. dun wanna go so early. sianx. jus nice when i step in, diana finish checking in everytink. so i start to file. dun wish to tok todae. so i jus kept quiet. n finish lik filing L4 within 1 hr 15min wif de help of diana n ivan. wen to basement n file myself. ivan came dwn n help too. haha. do til lik 10 plus close to 11 den nth to do liaoz. ad-hoc nt much oso. jus transit to ecs onli. haha. den slack at basement wif ivan til 11 plus wen esther n diana came dwn so i suggest we go up. lol. den we cont slackin. i eat titbit n go toilet n surf net. he looks for songs n jokes. lol. suddenly feel lik eating famous amos cookies so i search lik which on is de nearest to my hse. jurong pt. sianz. so far can. i was super hungry n it was lik drizzling once we step out of office. dun wan to go home so early tinkin tt my cousin might b here aldy. so i wen jp walk walk n buy my famous amos cookie. double chocolate, choco chip n forgot wat le. bought 3 flavours. cos every 250g purchased can get 50g free. haha. so u can expect de greedy me larx. haha. though abit heart pain, but can make me lik happie for 5 mins. ate 3 pcs of sushi n walked ard. kinda surprise tt jp n area ard it chng alot. from a familiar place to a place where i cant even recognise. wanted to window shop. but lili called me while i was shoppin so i was immediately sianz. cos she tok to me abt uni stuff. so i decided to go home lik since it was 2. n reach home lik almost 2:45. n... 'to my horror/surprise' ...... my cousin isnt here yet. haiz. waste my money to travel here n dere. n i started eating. jus wen i was lik halfwae thru my lunch cum dinner, my aunt called to sae dey are reachin in 2 mins time. dots. make me cant eat in peace. nt tt i dun lik my cousin to cum. more of i dun lik my neighbour's kid to cum over. jus dun lik him. dun ask me why. so i purposely bathe slowly n take my own sweet tym n off to work. reach lik super early. 4 plus. sianz. slack for lik 1 hr plus then start work. nt much orders. so i decided to do food prep so tmr i wulden b so rush. haha. kayys. dun feel lik typin liaoz. no mood to type. shall type nxt tym. bye
我.爱.水.母.头
23:55 |
Friday, May 30, 2008
无形的压力 日日夜夜侵袭着我 我转身 不让你看见 低头独自落下眼泪 为何此刻的自己 不知所措还站在原地 ?
dis is how i feel rite now. but i dun wish to rite de reason dwn here.
上一次微笑之后 世界遗漏了什么 怎么会突然忘了许多感动 难过的事总有好多 头顶的天空总是灰蒙蒙... 何时才可以看到我下一次真心的笑? 我好想忘掉为何烦恼 对着天空大声的叫.
perhaps im really tired dese few daes. tok to dewi ytd. abt uni tinks. actually was okie at first. til i wen basement to file n she start patting me everytime she walk pass me. so i was abit touched but i didnt cry. til she sae: i understand how u feel. got way out one. dun sad sad k? then i started to tear abit. til she kip patting me n repeating de same sentence. she c me lik i wanna cry so she came over to hug me. tts wen i really cry. sad can. though i dun wish to let her c, i tink she saw. so i borrowed her pass to go toilet n wash my face. she smiled de sweetest n farniest smile at me so at last it made me smile at her. den she hug me again n sae: dun cry. haha. so i was moody n sad sad de whole dae. lunch, i went gym for workout. wahha! lose more than 1kg. happie. ori gaf me milk hello panda. so i ate tt for lunch. den work. i file super fast k. dese daes. can manage everytink by myself. so i finished filing by 3:30pm. wen dewi cum n find me, it's lik gt nth for us to do. so wen L4 n start to shift abit. n go home. ate abit of veg n steamed fish. healthy diet ehx. drank chin chow n slp.
woke up wen dewi msg me. haha. tt tym my alarm haven ring. so i replied her. filing was super fast. basement was done by 11am. so i wen to do L4. do abit then go lunch. todae gt staff lunch. guess wat?! i ate a plate of chicken rice, an egg prata, fried noodles, black pepper beef n egg tofu. haha. todae high in cholesterol. fried, fried n more fried. egg, egg n more eggs. drank 2 cups of drink n half a piece of brownie which look lik spongecake. n doesnt taste nice. de black pepper beef is highly recommended. hehex. luv it. too bad. no desserts left. so i wait til 1 den go get dessert. de chocolate eclair was nice. crunchy n chocolate-ty n i ate lik 5 or 6. n dere's a square kueh with sweet corn was oso nice. i dunno wats tt one called lehx. if it's cold, it'll b even beta. so i enjoy myself til lik 1 plus then start filing. file til lik 2 den everytink done. so wen basement to file wif dewi. use lik onli half hr. wahh! n we all over dere looking for tinks to do. dewi n me do shifting. ivan n eileen do other side one. can sae most of de tinks are done / all todae's filing are done b4 we go home. haha. eileen left at 4. ivan n i was slackin practically de whole dae cos we gt nth to do. wen dewi wanted to go A clinic, with her loaded trolley, ivan push her trolley awae. haha. n wen off wifout us. so dewi n i chased aft him. haha. wen to clinic tgt cos we gt lik nth to do. den he push de trolley up wif de casesheets wifout us again. haha. den we laugh n laugh n laugh somemore. wen up n slack den go off. wen gym. sian. gain 1 kg fr de lunch. so i workout super hard but lose lesser than ytd. i tink cos my mood wasnt very good ytd so i work harder n lose more calories. haha. hope my mood can b dwn wen i'm gym-ing so tt i can lose more weight.
tts all. i'm tired.
我.爱.水.母.头
20:47 |
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
任意门
结冰的苹果用力啃不动
怎么才刚觉得热突然又台风
好的占为己有坏的一再重播
哪一扇门可以让我躲一躲
溜走
谁把任意门借给我(逃走)
谁把任意门借给我(不要上锁)
谁把任意门借给我(拜托)
谁把任意门借给我
我突然没借口什么都不想做
身边想见的人想讲的话都没有
口红觉得太油浏海变得太重
我看我不太我去去去做噩梦
怎么了烦的常常头痛做梦做梦可以脱离这宇宙
关上门没有人找得到我
逃到非洲逃到月球躲一躲
好闷
结冰的苹果用力啃不动
怎么才刚觉得热突然又台风
好的占为己有坏的一再重播
哪一扇门可以让我躲一躲
溜走
谁把任意门借给我(逃走)
谁把任意门借给我(不要上锁)
谁把任意门借给我(拜托)
谁把任意门借给我
人长大后什么都要撮破
明明不太好受偏偏还想长寿
恋爱行尸走肉害怕分手牵着手
工作越来越多越来越重才成功
明明冬天水果夏天居然有
自然不自然顾不了太多
天空破一个洞向上不断穿孔
花越开越红越活越久新品种
好闷
结冰的苹果用力啃不动
怎么才刚觉得热突然又台风
好的占为己有坏的一再重播
哪一扇门可以让我躲一躲
溜走
谁把任意门借给我(逃走)
谁把任意门借给我(不要上锁)
谁把任意门借给我(拜托)
谁把任意门借给我
溜走
谁把任意门借给我(逃走)
谁把任意门借给我(不要上锁)
谁把任意门借给我(拜托)
谁把任意门借给我
谁把任意门借给我
谁把任意门借给我
谁把任意门借给我
谁把任意门借给我
我.爱.水.母.头
21:27 |
下一次微笑
世界遗漏了什么
怎么会突然忘了许多感动
难过的事总有好多
头顶的天空总是灰蒙蒙
流泪的时候却忘了为什么
淡红色指头陪我煎熬
黑夜破晓 在嘴边咬了又咬
我好想忘掉为何烦恼
对着天空大声的叫
下次微笑你会看到
我真心上扬的嘴角
有人会在天涯海角
种一片草原看我奔跑
下次微笑我会骄傲
放晴的感觉多么好
不放弃总会等得到
我那熬过风暴真的微笑
难过的事总有好多
头顶的天空总是灰蒙蒙
流泪的时候却忘了为什么
淡红色指头陪我煎熬
黑夜破晓在嘴边咬了又咬
我好想忘掉为何烦恼
对着天空大声的叫
下次微笑你会看到
我真心上扬的嘴角
有人会在天涯海角
种一片草原看我奔跑
下次微笑我会骄傲
放晴的感觉多么好
不放弃总会等得到
我那熬过风暴真的微笑
下次微笑你会看到
我真心上扬的嘴角
有人会在天涯海角
种一片草原看我奔跑
下次微笑我会骄傲
放晴的感觉多么好
不放弃总会等得到
我那熬过风暴真的微笑
真的微笑
我.爱.水.母.头
21:19 |
culden really remb. wen to work in morning. it was rainin n i haf to run in de rain to reach office. sianx. super wet n cold. but nvm. yeah! got eileen to do filing wif me. so we filed basement.. culden finish filing wen we lunch at 1pm cos dere were jus too many boxes. lik ard 16 boxes. 8 were fr laz nite, 6 were fr a few daes b4 n de rest were from check-in in de morning. more than 16 i guess. had banana cake, shui kueh n chocolate waffle for lunch. super full. wen sgh, lvl 9 wif portia to see lingerie. she bought but i din. cos i dun lik de designs dere. haha. but abit cheap larx. aft tt, cont to do filing. til 3 plus den we go up. sk ask us to do de 'shit' filing first. so we haf to do. sianx. cant do shifting. de L4 behind part is lik shit. cant even file. so i file wat i can n gif up. hard to do shifting. so i dun care larx. sianx. i jus put all de tinks here n dere n squeeze de files in. n my hand is injured. on top of tt, guess wat? i carried de files out. n fell on de kick-stepper. n my leg is super pain n bruised all over de place. haiz. went gym aft work. 40 mins of stepper n 7 min of bicycle. lose over more than 200 calories. came home for dinner b4 my relative set off to my aunt's hse. den i bathe, watch dvd, read n slp.
todae. yes 28 may. woke up ard 6:30. bathe n bought breakfast. put de fried noodles in bag n guess wat?! my bag smell even b4 i reach de office. my horse smell oso. in case u are wondering wat horse did i bring, my horse is my hp pouch. wen office to eat my breakfast n start filing. did some shifting wif eileen as well. den go basement to do filing. finish ard 12. den wen L4 to slack til 1 den she went off n i wen lunch. ate shark nuggets lor mee, siew mai, spring roll n a cup of drink. file L4 til i die. n den go home liaoz. chiong to je. mit my aunty. wen home tgt. ate dinner n she went bac to malaysia aldy. sianz.
received letter from NUS todae. saddened.
我.爱.水.母.头
20:49 |
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
TO BE CONTINUE...
我.爱.水.母.头
13:35 |
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
我.爱.水.母.头
20:58 |
Sunday, May 18, 2008
fridae. went to work. whole dae file at basement. ate lunch wif dewi n ori. haha. vegetarian dae for me. ori offer me her seaweed chicken n chicken nuggets. but i cant. haha. n we all laugh abt eating vegetarian. den dewi, ori n nandar wen for vaccination. nandar go first. she smiled wen she came out. den dewi. her face looked super stress. den ori. guess wat?! her tears wanna fall liaoz. super farni. den she over dere complainin pain. den dewi n me comfort her. so i kip laughin. den we went basement at ard 2. filing finish at 2:30. so we do shifting. dewi shift herself den me n ivan shift other places. ivan start slacking lik aft i join him for 5 min. so i wen to dewi. den dewi chase me bac to ivan. ivan chase me to dewi. i m lik a ball. kicked ard by pple. sad. so i start whinin. fake cryin to dewi. den i complain to zinmar. haha. den ivan start work le. so i help him. den my tears fall. nt cry larx. fake one. so ivan look at me. i jus wipe de tears off n start workin while whinin. haha. den de 2nd tym i came out, saw david. my tears are stil falling. n david look at me weirdly. so i go hide at dewi dere n tell her. she oso look at me in such a weird manner. she scared i really cry. haha. wen dewi went toilet, david asked me if i dun lik to do shifting. so i sae nvr larx. wen dewi came bac, tok to her again. den our turn to 'bully' ivan. so ivan start to whine n he whine non stop for lik 5 mins. so dewi kip complainin tt his whinin is so gay and ask him to stop whinin. make de whole basement laugh lik shit. lol. stil feel lik laughin at dis tink. tt scene. dewi wen up to do additional. she act cute n tok to me. cos she scared i really cry. haha. den go home. wanted to take bus cos i wanna go temple. waited for lik 25 mins den de bus cum. guess wat?! de bus is super packed tt i cant board. so i was so pissed tt i take a cab which lik cost me $12.70. sianz. but i feel happie. den go temple. i m de onli person praying at tt hr. super happie tt i gt de best lot for de dae. i asked whether i can go uni n get de course i like. n de ans was can. haha. happie. waiting for de dae to cum.
k. tts all. wan read newspper n slp liaoz. workin at 9 tmr. :)
我.爱.水.母.头
21:22 |
Thursday, May 15, 2008
我.爱.水.母.头
19:49 |
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
0oh ya. forgt to blog abt de climax of de dae!!! climax lehx. how can i even forget. duh. was 11. all tracers wen to lvl 4 to print additional. so left ivan, david n me at basement. so we all sat dere n slack. haha. i was sayin tt it's sian. so david suggested us playin bingo. i was kinda excited n stood up to take pper beside de fone. guess wat?! i nvr c where is de position of de chair n jus sat. end up, i landed on de floor. my mini skirt was lik flew up. at dis 'correct' moment, david was lik screamin are u ok? n ivan immediately turn to look at me. wen my skirt was lik in such an awkward position. i hope ivan didnt c my *u noe wat*. haiz. super embarrassed. nt becos i fall. is cos ivan look at me. sianz. so i went to tell dewi, ori n portia. portia sae i shldnt wear short skirt. but i dun lik pants lehx. how? haha
我.爱.水.母.头
19:51 |
Monday, May 12, 2008
I regret not being there when you needed someone to care. It's something that cannot be undone, Neither can I turn things around. (from lizhen's blog.)
i really really really regretted that i didnt show her care wen she needed it,
i shld haf guessed tt wen she hugged me, she needed de hug bac. but i didnt.
i shld haf guessed tt wen she msged me to tok abt her grandma, she wants someone to comfort her. but i didnt.
i shld haf guessed tt wen she called me late at nite, she needed someone to tok to. but i didnt.
我.爱.水.母.头
12:30 |
Sunday, May 11, 2008
我.爱.水.母.头
19:01 |
Saturday, May 10, 2008
as usual, went to work. work was okie. went shopping wif mum aft work. bought 3 tops n a dress. which i lik onli one. perfume n lip gloss. i wanna get a tube as well! guess how much i spent fr de shopping? $200. pro bahx. one nite, in less than 3 hrs i spent $200. in order to earn bac de same amt, take one mth in de restaurant n 4 daes at snec. though my heart pains alot, but i m happie at least. now, i haf a prob. too many tops n no bottoms. hahaz. tts de prob of too many tops. i stil tinkin wat bottoms to buy to match wif de top. all de tops nid leggings, which i dun lik n dun haf. jus dun lik to wear pants. shorts okie. short skirts ok. long skirts... no way! man! how? running out of bottoms. shall go OG to search.
ever since lik dunno wen... i m too busy to even flip thru de newspper. seems lik i m getting polarise fr de world. sadden. even if i read papers, i dun understand wat de articles are tokin abt. sianx.
if dreams are a part of our subconscious mind, how do u explain de dreams which will be reality in future? how do u explain the weird dreams of dead coming bac to request sth fr us?
我.爱.水.母.头
23:48 |
Thursday, May 08, 2008
stress abt 2 tinks. first is de uni tinky. i tink i wont haf lik ani sch to go to le... sad can. i can lik do nth wif A lvl cert. haiz. wen dewi tok to me abt dis tink at basement, i feel lik cryin. super vex can... second. u noe wat?! tmr is minloo's first death anniversary. weneva i tink abt dis tink, i will feel super sad. i will pass by her hse everydae n de place tt she commited suicide on my wae to work. somehw or rather, i aldy get over it. but tmr, i dunno wat will happen. let's c... went home wif dewi n ori todae aft work. had a fun tym @ work. :) wen je. she wan buy tinks. guardian dun haf. go watsons. den haf. she kip buyin more n more. den wen zingdo to buy deep fried spinach. she love it. n wen to de cheapo shop to buy my fav seaweed n baby powder cos i alwaes haf dis itchy-ness on my neck. dunno too hot or de basement too dirty. jus bought lik de cheapest. cos i will use some n throw awae de rest. haha. den her bro wan zinger fr kfc. so i wen to mac n buy med fries. yum yum. was so full by de tym i reach home. was tokin to dewi all de wae home. bathe n haf curry chicken. tmr i bringin curry chicken n bread to work. hope it'll b a nice one. :)
我.爱.水.母.头
21:42 |
sorry to my girlfriends out dere... i didnt organise outing as promised like laz wk. cos i was sick n wasnt in de mood to organise anitink. but i promise. i promise. i promise to organise one soon. meanwhile, pls gather more gossips!!! so tt we can gossip more nxt tym wen we mit ok?
我.爱.水.母.头
12:38 |
Friday, May 02, 2008
ytd, my dad asked me wen i noe de results for my application to uni. i said june. n u guess wat?! it's dis mth. by snail mail. i was lik: ehx. so fast may le arhx. haha. my calender is wrong. :) work too much til dunno wat's happenin ard me. i hope tt de faculty i wan accepts me. i m startin to b afraid tt no uni wans me. haiz. i m far fr my target. saddened.
我.爱.水.母.头
19:18 |
Thursday, May 01, 2008
was tinkin: why do such pple lik de woman n michael exist in de world? to make others look perfect? i jus dislike dese kind of pple. but sumtyms i wish to b lik dem cos i tink dey're worry-less. n mayb deir world is happier cos dey dun haf to tink too much. jus do wat dey feel lik doin.
todae, i jus feel lik cryin aft a whole dae. cos of many tinks. how i wish someone would stab me wif a knife for every wrong tink i do n stitch one of my wounds weneva i do a gd deed. tt wae, my scars will tell me how much i've gone tru. i feel tired wifin me. really really really tired. i wish to rest... forever.
我.爱.水.母.头
22:30 |