Tuesday, May 31, 2005
31st May 2005
haiz.. i m back to blog le.. i m nt really happie nor unhappie dese few daes. i wanna sae: It's a long long journey... n i dunno watta type. my 4 yrs in Sec sch life ish gg to end sn.. very very sn. n i feel tt i've achieve alot [dere's oso alot more to b done too].. i mean in terms of knowledge.. whether in st.john or in sch. i also sort of reach my target... in st. john... i wen to basic '02 n adv '04 n pass.. n i wen for first aid comp '02 n footdrill comp'03 .. n oso nt to forget bein an instructor in basic '04. in sch.. i gt into de best class n stayed dere fer 2 yrs.. den i was promoted to a course which i wan mos.. the triple science class! although my results were nt tt gd in sec 3, i improved in sec 4! my mum oso haf a little bit of confidence of me gg into a JC. hopefully JJC. cos near my hse mahx.. hahaz. okie.. i feel tt i haf nt work hard yet.. my L1R5 ish nt dere yet. i wil haf to work beri hard fr nw on. hmmX. tink too far le. let's cum back to reality.........i really feel tt everi tink has chng. nt tt i m alwaes affected by others' mood larx. nvrdeles it affects too.. but nt really tt makes me chng my mind. hw i wish to go back to my lower sec life.. ish much beta. back to de tyms wen i played wif my frenz everidae aft sch.. till late late den go home. den play wif hui ying.. yiyi.. yixin.. joanna n jane.. n lots more.. de daes r so memorable tt i DUN WANNA GROW UP!!! esp de dae in west coast park.. til nw i oso nvr forget.. den i haf sinmal camp.. 3d2n experience.. its a total diff feelin.. de camp rox totallie.. hmmx.. den noe alot of frenx fr sec 1-3.. hmmx. n maintain de friendship til nw. nice one.. haiz. recently.. it sim lik everitink chng.. dunno y.. perhaps dere's a tym for everytink.. every chng tt takes place around us. wen it's tym for a chng, god wil chng it. it happens very naturally. shruggs. i dun noe.. let tinks jus take it's nature course bahx. mayb, it's tym for me to learn hw to accept chng..hmmX.. let's c.. ytd i had my MT O lvl. hmmX. i shun sae it was gd.. it wasn't bad neither. i jus hope i cn really get an A1 once n for all!!! really dun wish to retake again unless i haf no choice.. todae i had trainin wif my lower sec.. as usual, i m very disappointed wif de attendance. haiz. really dunno watta do.. hmmX.. todae ding jun came dwn to our corp help wif de uniform tinky. had a nice chat wif him. lik tt lor.. nw, i feel very very very tired.. tired of everitink. of studies of maintanance of __________. i really nvr feel dis tired b4. i dunno if i haf animore energy left to cheng dan zhe yi qie..really wish to shut out fr de world fer sum tym. wo mei you li qi gen ren he ren tai gang.. dun ask me why or anitink. perhaps, takin one step back n let go everitink ish de best solution.. It's a long long journey
...
*Sometimes it feels no one understands*
*I don't even know why*
*I do the things I do*
*When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul*
*Will you break down these walls and pull me through*
我.爱.水.母.头
23:07 |
* to memories that i relieve*
Saturday, May 21, 2005
21st May 2005
hmmX. todae is a fun dae! jus came back fr Sentosa!!! todae is Opscom outing. i woke up at 7 ++ den realised tt it is too early den i slp lorx. slp until 7:45. alarm clock ring den i wake up. den ah peik called me. jus nice. no voice to reply.. jus woke up. den go bath den pack tinks n take food.. write note to mama den go out le. go buy batteries den wait for bus. wah~ de weather so hot n i haf to wait 15minx for de bus. sianx. den on de bus, read story bk n listen to discman. dunno y nwadaes, i bring my discman out. den reach le.. i con't listening. den walk all de wae to MRT n mit dem. sianz. onli 9:15. early noe i dun cum out so early. den i walk pass daniel wifout noein.. den he call me.. dunno y i sim to b able to hear him call.. i beri de blur lor. den stand dere wif him.. tok tok.. i tot he jus came nt long ago.. den he tell me he 8++ reach le. sianx. so early!!! wah~ we rot dere.. den awhile ltr tian le cum.. he wear jeans. den daniel tell me.. where gt pple go beach wear jeans one.. i over dere laugh n laugh. den he go chng lor. den daniel wanted to walk over de other side n c if gt anibdy cum.. he oso wanna go toilet. den found soonie, peik shin n weiting. walk back wif dem. den we sit dwn n tok. den sandy cum.. wahhaha~ decided to trick ding jun. den we check tym.. okie lor.. my hp tym slow. den i agar agar.. set to 9:56.. shiok.. den ltr 10:01 den he cum. nice one.. hahaz. peik shin already noe wat forfeit to gif lorx. okie.. den we walk to de interchng n take bus to sentosa. wah~ bully de guys.. i sae whose bag lightest mux take de heaviest stuff.. bully daniel.. cos his bag de lightest. den i tye 2 big baggies of titbits to de bag.. hahaz. knock here n dere, all crush liaoz.. lolx. wen we were dere, we try to figure out which line to take. daniel clever sia.. he figured out. once we get dere, daniel took off his shirt.. sumtyms i so envy guys. cn dunnit to wear clothes.. lolx de rest of us hot lik mad.. sweat as if we jus jump into de sea den cum out. we wen nature trail first. den saw alot of dragon bones.. quite nice sia. i luv dem so much. muackies. den walk walk walk.. saw one dragon cn release water one.. very cute.. i was facinated n fall in luv wif de dragon immediately.. lolx. hope cn go back one dae n c again. we wen mt imbiah summit n look at dunno wat.. lolx. feeding mosquitoes. den we walk to bus station n take bus to siloso beach. den we sit dwn under de coconut trees [wifout coconuts] n start to picnic.. dere were alot of food. we can't finish. wah~ awhile ltr.. we pack up le. go under a shelter. den sandy, ding jun, wei ting, tian le wen to buy drinks. daniel, peik.. soonie n me stay at beach.. we bury daniel in de sand. but he kip movin.. de sand crack n crack den we mend n mend. lolx. beri funni. den peikshin kip jumpin n jumpin on him. lolx. den i jump here n dere over him. we play ball too.. usin him as de middle line.. lolx. den he can't tahan le.. cum up.. den he chase us n throw sand on our heads.. lolx.. he did it to me dunno hw many tyms le lorx.. den hor.. de sand wen into my nose n mouth.. rinse once n dun care le larx.. wen dey came back, we play game.. zhong ji mi ma.. very fun.. dose who guess de no. correctly wil haf forfeit. i drank lime.. nice one.. luckily ish my fav. den aft de game.. de sky black black. den we wen inside MPH [multi purpose hall]. con't wif captain's ball. dj, daniel, tl, sandy n me in de same grp.. de rest in de other grp. den play.. soonie grp lik very ke lian.. nvr win.. i chng grp n help dem lorx. wah~ shiok sia. gt chance to run n score.. i chng grp barely 1 min den score le.. hmmX.. sims lik my skills gt improve.. aft watchin 10 rounds of mvp. den play til sianx liaox den chng to volleyball n monkey. den ltr we chng game to murderer.. fun sia.. i gt to b murderer twice n detective twice.. happie sia.. den play till de laz few rounds all sianx sianx liaoz.. den we put food in de centre.. eat n play at de same tym. we look at de eyes of everybdy.. lolx. very funni.. i look as if i very fierce. den i guess twice correctly.. one is jia min n de other one daniel.. 2 oso wanna kill me lolx. den ltr.. abt 5++, we get ready to go dwn water. b4 tt, we played frisbee. i first one to get dwn n get wet. den play wif water.. sae cheers.. lead by daniel. hahaz. everybdy look in our direction.. we shout as if de whole sea own by us. we sang alot of songs too. oldies.. newbies oso haf. den i learn swimmin fr soonie.. i scared sia. dunno y i scared drown bahx.. i kip wanting to go deeper, where i cn't touch de sand. but i dun dare. den stay dere play lor. i hug de ball cos i realise tt it cn float.. i feel safer.. hehex. den ltr daniel n dj swim to de other 'island' n make de word SJAB. nice sia! so cool! but din manage to take a snap of it cos too blur.. den nvm lorx. as long as we kip inside our hearts cn le. we kip playin, splashin water on one another.. den piggy back each other.. me n jia min.. for tl to take photos. hehex. den we took grp photos in de sea oso.. nice one.. i call daniel pull me to where he standin. den i kip afloat dere.. wif sheng hui n daniel, ea one by my side, i feel very safe. den ltr, daniel push me back into de shallow water. i hug de ball ball. play n play until abt 7:30 den we get up de water n run towards de MPH.. n it rained.. lolx. i was cold.. sneeze. haiz. so sad.. sandy wen home le.. miz her.. den i run round n play volleyball wif daniel n tl. den ltr dunno y play until becum transportation of casualty. jus nice.. i won once.. lolx. den ltr wei ting go check out toilet.. stil gt pple.. den we wait awhile lorx. sit dwn actually wanna tink of wat games to play.. den end up tokin n sae abt results. den tok until 8:25 den we go bathe.. all gals go bathe first den de guys... dey help us take care tinks n dey play dunno wat. aft i m done wif my tinks, i saw a dry spot outside de gals toilet. i help dem carry tinks dere n dey bathe lorx.. meanwhile.. de gals prepare lorx.. den suddenly all cum out liaox. okie le.. jus nice timing, all cum out together.. den we clear all de drinks n food.i took 1 big baggy of Ruffles fr daniel.. lolx. eat until lik pig.. finally finish le.. hahaz.. den we took bus back at 9++ den go food centre to eat hai hui's jelly. den tok tok n we go off. before tt, we go take grp photos.. hahaz. den ltr all go home le.. me n daniel walk to bus stop.. de rest take mrt. okie.. till here.. den bus cum le.. byex.. off i go.. haiz.. so sad.. hope tt tym cn stop de min wen we go into water.. it was really fun.. haiz.. all gd tinks wil cum to an end. sadx. wonderin wen will we mit again? haiz. opscom rox!!!hope to c u guys sn.. 0oh ya.. dose who thnk me .. aehs.. ur welcum.. do u all enjoy it? It's a long long journey
...
*Sometimes it feels no one understands*
*I don't even know why*
*I do the things I do*
*When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul*
*Will you break down these walls and pull me through*
我.爱.水.母.头
11:59 |
* to memories that i relieve*
Friday, May 20, 2005
20th May 2005
hmmx. todae as usual. norm sch dae. no st.john aft sch. which made me so sianz. i tot haf u noe?! but luckily todae's chn lesson end at abt 2:30. which leaves me abt 1.5 hrs before PTI. haiz. den go canteen eat n chat wif sally. abt 4.. i wen dwn to foyer n wait for my mama. wen i reach foyer, she oso reach le lorx. so zhun. lolx. den wen to take attendance n up to de hall. it's onli 4:05 pm. my slot ish 4:10. den Ms Chow c my mama first lor. cos we came first. den she sae abt me in class.. nvr really concentrate.. i wil onli concentrate wen i finish my own tinks.. den alwaes do other pple's tinks in de class. bla bla bla. den she sae sth gd abt me.. i dere to ask qns.. hahaz. all tchers scared of me le. i ask n ask n ask until tcher dunno hw to reply. lik tt lor. wen she take out my report bk.. i stunned. i wanna c clas n lvl position. sianz. she anihw flip one pg. sec 3 EYE. i tot i really do so badly until my clas position is 11. i almoz cried. [my class onli gt 24 pple.] den she sae wrong pg. wah.. i abit relieve le cos i expect beta results. den she flip. i snatch de bk fr her. 3 n 5!!! wuhoo.. class position: 3 n lvl position: 5. i was over de moon. but i din jump n shout. lik tt lor. den ltr we go 'celebrate'. wen we wen out of hall, we saw Ms Sugeetha n Ms Fahizah. den Ms Sugeetha call me check which tcher wanna c me.. den dun haf.. u c.. i so guai until no tcher wanna c me.. hehex. den saw MT tcher.. wah lao~ she hor.. nvr pakat wif pple one.. sianz. den she tell my mama i in class beri noisy.. dis n tt.. haiz. i tot wil get scoldin fr her. but end up nvr.. *grins* den we wen mass briefing. english tcher c me look at report bk den she smile. she came over n sae sth. i forget wat le. lik tt lor. den ltr my mama buy hershey chocolate n jelly beans for me. den wen market buy dinner n pasar malam walk walk. lik tt lorx. go home liaox. den i quickly bathe n eat dinner n watch dolphin bay!!! nice show. den call peik lorx. confirm tmr tinks. de outing!!! which made me cannot slp. hahaz. lik tt lorx.. okie.. till tmr. look out for de outing bahx! *eyeball rolling*my results r as follows: 1] el-- c5.. improved by 1 grade. wil con't to improve..2] chn-- a1.. okie larx.3] a-math-- c6.. improved 3 grades!!! wil con't to improve.4] e-math-- a2.. improved 3 grades. hopin to get a a1.5] bio-- b3. drop 2 grades.wil improve!!! haiz. no wonder tcher scold.6] chem-- b4. improved 1 grade. wil con't to improve.7] physics-- b3. drop 2 grades. haiz. wasted. hope o lvl isnt lik tt.8] combined humans-- b4. drop 2 grades. hopin to improve till a1.okie.. tts all.
It's a long long journey
...
*Sometimes it feels no one understands*
*I don't even know why*
*I do the things I do*
*When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul*
*Will you break down these walls and pull me through*
我.爱.水.母.头
20:42 |
* to memories that i relieve*
Thursday, May 19, 2005
19th May 2005
it's bin 4 daes since i blogged. i kip forgetting to blog lorx. major tinks happened dis wk.. wah~ alot lehx. busy till nw. haiz. nw left wif 11 daes to MT O LVL!!! haiz. dunno wat i doin oso. i haven even start revision yet. stil in my lala land. playing mood aft exams. i tink cn stil manage bahx. i wan to start tmr.. n i sure will.. I WILL NT WAN TO REGRET LATER!!! yar. okie let's review de past 4 daes. hmmx.. 16th May 2005. ish de las pper CME.. lolx. de pper quite diff worx. nt really gt confidence to do well. hmmx.. aft our pper, linn, bel n me wen market eat den chat a while den go home. i reach home bathe n slp. but cannot.. end up sing abt 1 hr den slp. slp till 12:40 lik tt. wake up. dilly dally.. pack n decidin whether to bathe anot.. den bathe lorx. den wen out.. i wen out at 1:23.. but reach dere at 2++ late worx! so sorry to cum late! i oso dunno y will end up so late.. stun. den we quickly go k box. sing n sing. start by me.. ruby lin's song.. yun shen shen yu meng meng. lucky nt very out of tune. long tym nvr hear de song le. den sing alot of other songs.. angela zhang.. gt 4.. den s.h.e gt a whole 3 lists. den stil gt 5566.. bla bla bla. den i kip singin high pitch. den one of de songs no voice le.. out of tune.. paiseh.. i sing til i no voice.. can't tok. dun care.. sing till 7++ den off we go.. sheng hui n hai hui went home.. den me.. soonie n wei ting ate dinner. thnks worx. luckily dey gt tell me dis Sat ish de outing.. if nt.. i stil will dilly dally do my tinks. den go home le lorx. i stil haf to go sch de nxt dae.. so tired.. wen i reach home, my eyes cn hardly open. online awhile den slp le. 17th May 2005.. todae's major event ish checking of ppers n nAPFA test 5 stations.. as for academic.. okie lar.. quite happie wif de results larx.. at least i do beta den wat i expected. checked all ppers except for combined humans.. den aft sch.. 5 stations.. all pass larx.. running improved.. de rest dunno.. lik tt.. tt's all for todae.18th May 2005.. todae took back all ppers.. inclu combined humans.quite dissappointed wif my combined humans results. my combined humans get a B4 .sianz. drop 2 grades. very big u noe?! haiz. nvm lar.sad liaoz.. den todae aft sch run 2.4.. fail again.. even 'break my sec 1 record'. nvm. i shall try harder.. i will pass de nxt tym.. den ltr go drink bubble tea n go home. todae ish definitely nt my dae.. sianz. no mood. shhoo.. u get out of my life!!! den plan de outline of dis Sat outing. abit in depth larx.. tok to peik till 11++. den start ot do hw. or rather.. copy.. heyx.. pple.. dun learn dis if u read my blogg. tt's all for todae.. tired.. hmmx.. n todae.. norm lessons lorx. durin physics check results.. calculate my L1R5. den sit wif bel at staircase durin recess. go to gallery for de las period.. all gals play concentration n murderer. very fun.. but we dun haf much tym. den ltr wen library borrow bks on games.. den go eat at CC. quite sick of de food dere. i wan to eat other tinks!!! aft eatin.. den i came home.. slack ard.. lk at game bks.. den do all de tinks tt i wanted to do den call peik.. tok abt food n games.. lolx. jus put dwn de fone.. pack.. all tinks ready den play comp.. will b slpin awhile ltr. tmr i wanna go class early.. put baggie. gt PE.. first period. n sumore.. dere's PTI aft sch! haiz. tired. i very very very tired of planning de tinks le. haiz. hmmx.. dere sims to b sth tt i wanna blogg abt.. but i forget wat le.. it's alwaes lik tt.. everytym really gt tinks to blogg den cum up forget le. den cum up alwaes gif rubbish.. til here larx.. rubbishing til here..~ rubbish wanna retire le.. lolx. byez~
It's a long long journey
...
*Sometimes it feels no one understands*
*I don't even know why*
*I do the things I do*
*When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul*
*Will you break down these walls and pull me through*
我.爱.水.母.头
22:36 |
* to memories that i relieve*
Sunday, May 15, 2005
15th May 2005
Happie b'dae to u. happie b'dae to u. happie b'dae to Sandy.. happie b'dae to u.. sandy!!! y isit so hard to contact u?! hope tt u cn c dis bloggie.. wherever u may b.. i wish u a Happie b'dae. haiz. i m so bored.. dying.. laz wk, i was busy wif my rev.. dis wk i so sian. jus finished readin my story bk. 2 daes nvr blogg already. yar.. ytd went to my aunt's hse. abt 4++ hehex. bought an angela cd. i luv it shoo muchie!!! muackx! her songs okie lar. quite nice. but gt exception larx. okies. arrived abt 5pm. on de wae dere, i ate one waffle. den i saw wristband. very cheap. onli $1. i wanted to buy. but dunno which one to. den end up nvr buy. once i reach dere, my uncle offered me potato chips, soft drinks, cakes n ice-cream! i onli ate ice-cream. it was dunno chocolate fudge or triple choco!!! very nice. my cousin woke up fr her aftnoon nap n we went causeway pt at abt 7. wow! my aunt treat me to YOSHINOYA. ate the same as laz tym wen i wen out wif hz dey all. salmon n chicken. wif soup n drink. YUM! aft tt, we wen shoppin.. den buy sushi for my brother. den we wen swensen bought 3 tubs of ice-cream. she gave me 2. beri nice. todae ate already. todae i woke up at 11 plus. still tired. but can't slp le. haiz. mum screaming!!! den lie dere read storybk till 12. den remb tt dere's shao nian te gong dui. den wake up n watch lor. den ltr eat breakfast n read storybk. call soonie n ah peik. tok abt k box n Saturdae's outing. watch tv n slack ard. haiz. outin ish Saturdae n i haven do anitink yet. how how how??? messing up my life. sianz. i tink will do tmr as i get tmr break. haiz. i wan to blogg abt alot of tinks wan.. but wen i open everytink le den nth to blogg. everytink vanish into thin air. haiz. hw i wish i cn go out.. shop shop.. spent $$ wifout havin to worry abt anitink. buy tinks tt i lik. haiz. tmr go k box gonna sing my heart out!!! n wif de upcomin outing, i tink dis shld b enuff to kip my wk occupied. wif de results cumin up, dis wk shld b a very tirin wk.. mentally n physically.. for me to take. i will b exhausted!!!It's a long long journey
...
*Sometimes it feels no one understands*
*I don't even know why*
*I do the things I do*
*When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul*
*Will you break down these walls and pull me through*
我.爱.水.母.头
19:51 |
* to memories that i relieve*
Friday, May 13, 2005
13th May 2005
darrling~ long tym no chat wif u le.. (referrin to de blog. hahaz.) for 16 daes, i ignore u.. hmmZ. tok to u todae bahx. todae is de las dae of examz.. or rather, de laz dae of impt subjects. hw do i feel abt it??? darrling.. actually i dunno lorx.. whether to feel sad or happie. happie is becos examz end le.. no more stress.. can do de tinks i lik. sad ish cos.. i noe i won't do well. din revise very much. but i tink thru dis exam, i learnt the moz. as compared to laz tym lar. at least i understand all de concepts behind majority of math.. thnks daniel.. ur file helped me alot. hmmZ. let me tell u one by one bahx.
29 Apr --> el pper 1 n 2. pper 1 was quite tough.. i mean de report section. de report is in conversation form. sianz. i dunno hw to do. den compo, was ok larx. i rote de qualities of a leader. was easy of course.. becos i nvr finish n my vocab beri bad.. i tink wil get lotsa markz deducted.
5th May --> social studies n physics pper 2. social studies was quite easy larx.. i studied the correct topic. but for tt 2 essay qns.. one is direct.. one is indirect.. cannot refer to ani incident n rite.. but i argued my way thru. den source based ok to me.. jus tt i rote so much tinks tt i dun haf tym to finished. aft tt.. physics.. haiz. killer pper!!! wah~ i died there. can't do.. boohoohoo haiz. hope tt i cn get distinction dis tym.
6th May --> geog n MT pper 1. both ppers r ok to me.. geog was easy. i did map readin.. [compulsory hahaz.] oil palm plantation n development??? tink so.. can't remb. hope tt i cn pass well. den MT pper 1. part one.. i rote personal letter.. si han.. ok dough.. den part 2. i gt a shock out of my life!! all 3 qns were response to report.. wah~ i expect to haf one narrative one.. i lik narrative tax!! can create my world of fantasy. no choice den. i rote sth abt teens.. haiz. scared tt i can't get distinction.
9th May --> math pper 1 n bio pper 2. both ppers are killing me!!! haiz. todae wasn't my dae. math pper 1 was okie.. jus tt no tym to finish. as usual lar. i m slow n i lack confidence! used to it le larx. since laz yr til nw. bio pper 2 can't do. anihw do lorx. hope at least cn get a B3.
10th May --> chemistry pper 2 n a-math 1. chem pper 2 was quite easy. i prepared for it.. hahaz. den a-math pper 1 was ok. except for de 5, 6 n 7 marks qns. haiz. hope cn paz.
11th May --> e-math pper 2 n MT pper 2. e-math pper 2 i feel tt it was easy. but den hor.. haiz. tt triangle. sianz. i did. my ans wrong. MT pper 2. tian xie han zi. out of 5.. i onli gt 4 correct. hope tt dis tym cn get distinction lor.
12th May --> physics pper 1 n bio pper 1. physics pper very easy. quite confident of gettin full marks [hope so.] den i wil haf chance to get distinction. bio pper 2 was quite diff.. again. i nvr study. but sum i managed to guess correctly. hope cn get B3 at least.
13th May --> a-mathy pper 2 n chemistry pper 1. a-mathy pper was ok. hope can do well here to even out for pper 1. as usual, i studied for pper 2. gt one qns. ytd i jus saw at daniel's file. all thnks to his file. i noe how to do worz. but den hor. de same prob arise lar. nt enuff tym!! haiz. used to it le larx. wah~ chem pper. i die le. all ans i guess oso wrong. haiz. die le. esp de laz qns. dis tym, gonna scold by sudheeran again. haiz. so b it. nt de first tym le.
haiz. u c lor. lik tt hw to get gd grades. wah~ but tt wil gimme a warning. to study hard for MT o lvl!!! so tt i cn concentrate on de other subjects. fr nw till tt dae, onli gt 17 daes left. I PROMISE I WILL WORK HARD HARD FOR IT [doubly hard.] ok. tok to u next tym. gonna go do my tinks le. muackx.
It's a long long journey
...
*Sometimes it feels no one understands*
*I don't even know why*
*I do the things I do*
*When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul*
*Will you break down these walls and pull me through*
我.爱.水.母.头
15:59 |
* to memories that i relieve*