haiz. wat a happy teachers' day lo.
haiz. tinks spoil my mood. esp de S.H.E play dvd. haiz. i dun wish to repeat de story. i jus dun wish to watch it ever again.
我.爱.水.母.头
19:49 |
Friday, August 24, 2007
wat a week!
我.爱.水.母.头
20:34 |
Saturday, August 18, 2007
haiz...
This is is totallie gone n ruined. previous sun:12/8/07, i dreamt of min loo. she came into my dream at nite wen i was slpin. she was distributing dunno wat charity magnet to de sch. she gaf me as well. tgt wif an 'invisible' envelop. but i din notice tt she handed me an envelop til morning, wen i was abt to wake up, someone i dunno appear in my dream n tell me tt she gaf me a letter telling me to forget abt her n move on. i opened up de letter. she used 100 pt form sentences and de story of a young pea to hint me to forget abt her. woke up in de mornin. i realised wat she said was rite. perhaps she purposely enter my dreams n tell me to forget abt her. dis is de 2nd tym tt i dreamt of her. so i wen sch as usual. but nt enuff slp. due to de 'nitemare'. actually was quite okie. was tinkin of her while listenin to ms tan tok. b4 lesson end, she told us to look up on suicide rates. suicide rates are increasing. so i mastered my courage n tok to her abt min loo's death. which haunted me for some time. i teared abit. i made her wan to cry oso. her eyes were redder den mine. tok til de whole break was over n she patted my shoulders n tell me tt i m free to look for her if i wan to tok abt it. n tts de time wen i started nt payin attention to ani other lessons for de whole wk cos i was too affected by it. feelings? it kills. wed aft foto taking, i wen to tok to her again. 1.5 hrs. dis tym was beta. thnks. at least tokin to her made me feel stronger. she kip telling me to gif god a chance sumdae. haha. n told me tt she'll b praying for me. everytink lik she saes link to god. hahaz. she told me abt herself oso. quite surprised to know hw she had chnged. dis tink haunt me for a wk. b4 i knew tt it affected me tremendously, it's 3 mths passed her death. n aft 5 daes of tokin. at least i haf more courage nw.
i wen to vivo todae to look for my hp. i wan N72. but too bad. no shops sell tt animore. haiz. i shall patiently wait til de dae my plan was up den chng fone. sadx.
When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
我.爱.水.母.头
19:55 |
Friday, August 10, 2007
haven finished half of my tutorial wif 3 daes of holidaes gone. slacked. slacked n more slack ever. exactly 10 daes to prelim. tts it i guess. cant stop watchin tv, surfing. n i m alwaes fan-ing abt other pple's tinks wen dey are none of my business. haiz.
life's so sian. everydae study n study n study to prepare for A. my dark eye rings getting darker n darker n bigger n bigger everydae. sianz. i m tryin to slp more so can alleviate de prob. but hell no. it's gettin darker n darker. help! but at least for dis wk, de pimples dun haunt me. =) nw, even a small pimple can get on my nerves. dunno why. hmmx. hope i will b happier in tym to cum. =))
my goal: to score straight As for A level n to becum a perfect person! =)
我.爱.水.母.头
21:07 |
Friday, August 03, 2007
a good week? a bad week?
i took 99 jus now. cos i missed 198. argh! nvm. drop at his previous hse n chng bus. initially, i din feel anitink weird or wat. but i remind myself tt he moved to a place so far awae. far awae fr je. i turned to look at de void deck tt we walked passed, de jokes tt we shared n all. n we waited for bus tgt n go je. i reached je interchng to chng bus home. b4 de bus came, i look ard. de place tt we sat aft work to chat. til i took de 2nd laz bus home. de place tt he board his bus home. de place tt we waited for 105 to go IMM. n de many tinks tt we did in je. sitting on de steps n chat. on de stools waiting for mel n tokin. suddenly tot of mel once said tt dis place hold a lot of memories for us. felt nostalgic. u noe? but i cant do dese tinks animore. not in de future. ... ...
dis wk was a busy wk for me. wif econs test on mondae, phy test on tues n chem test todae. so i practically missed my whole wk of good night rest. it's a fruitful wk for me i shall say. i gt bac my math test. 22/25. haiz. 3 marks. sianz. phy pper- 31/50. haiz. wasted. no A. alot of careless mistake again. if i were to c properly, i culd haf gotten 5 marks more. arghx! n todae's test, i aim for A. but i tink i will get a B onli if i m lucky. i hope i m lucky. haiz. why din i do de 2nd qns. ... i noe hw to do. explanation n equations. but i dunno wat to quote fr date booklet. at least tt shld gain me 2/3 marks. aniwae, de whole tink is over! nxt wk is national dae. i shld rest. =)
我.爱.水.母.头
20:37 |
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
so tired til nth can register into my brain. how m i goin to study for de test on fri? haiz. tell me how to study less, learn more, know more, understand more, apply more and score high. sianz.
life suckx for me. i guess. i felt so empty. so lonely.
我.爱.水.母.头
18:12 |