oh my...
my mood is a lil affected aft reading mel's blog. but i wun let myself b affected by it for too long. i understand why she sae david is de mei(2) xin(1) de. cos i reminded him to wish her happie bdae. muaha. sorry to both of dem, i spoilt de fun... arghz! but i hope i m nt one of de 2 which she dun even wish to mention. tink positive... tink positive... =)
everydae's studyin lik hell. no fun! no fun! haiz. actually, it's possible to do well if i start studyin nw. so i shld! =) but life's a lil boring if i kip studyin. it adds on to my current 'unwillingness' to study aft i read horoscope. haiz. nvm. shall slack abit more. buck up tmr! muaha. =) tts all!
我.爱.水.母.头
20:47 |
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
slacked! slack! n more slack ever.
woke up at 9 plus todae. thnks to de construction work hah. i wanted to slp in. but de unit under construction was bside my rm. so yah. den get ready to go out. my mum volunteered to go out wif me. okie lo. wen bank first. den to de NTUC income. went to wifdraw fr de insurance. i dun wan! it's lik wasting money if nth happens to me til 60 yrs old. muaha. den to queensway to find my FBT shorts. n i gt it. exactly de one i wan. so i bought onli 1. went ikea. for gt hotdog bun. $1 onli. muaha. it's bin ard 2 yrs since i ate it. i miz de taste. den wen bus stop to take bus to vivo. ate n c dogs. muaha. dey are cute okie. =) i kip making one dog jump n knock to de ceiling. muaha. bad! ain't i? ate mee soto as well. it tastes great! :D $4 per bowl n its real big bowl. wen 2nd lvl to sit. mum sat dere den ask me go walk ard. so i wen to look for him at lvl 1. but he was workin. so i left him a msg. he din reply my msg oso. haiz sad. wen walkin ard aft tt den came home. had my squid head n seafood gyoza. spent $9.20 on food n $10 on shorts. haiz. mus save up... no work no money. :( okie. gtg study liaoz. tts all folks.
我.爱.水.母.头
16:50 |
Sunday, May 27, 2007
it's holiday finally!
wen out wif shini, ww, hz on fridae. had sushi buffet. had 3 bowls of cha soba. can u believe it?! dey kip seeing me eat de noodle. muaha. but i jus loved it. i love the fried assorted vege oso. soft shell crab handroll. muaha. but i onli ate one. cos de rice inside is real lots. b4 gg in, i let shini c his foto. n guess wat? wen she turned, she saw him. den she ask me if it's him anot. lol. den i wen screaming for him. i gt ignored by him in return. zzz. but nvm. it's happie seeing him. den we wen walkin ard. c animals. tokin outside. wen to c him work oso. i did sth so stupid u noe??? wen to look for his gf. lol. den i was observing. tinkin abt wat sir joseph sae. lol. nvm larx. dunno her well.
suddenly, i feel tt tinks are different todae. haiz. y do we haf to grow up? why tym cant stop laz yr aft end yr exam? den i can work wif him, play wif him n stuff. even wen we go out nw, de feelin is diff. n i dun lik tt. he has nth to tok to me abt. we seldom play n laugh nwadaes. i oso realise tt i haf nth to laugh wif ww abt. bac to sec sch daes, i used to crap abt almos everytink i can find under de sun. nw, i cant even crap abt a single tink. haiz. stil waitin patiently for de tym all of us culd make it to a gathering. i wan to go out wif him. so long nvr c him oso. haiz. kinda mis him.
i wan to eat: billy bombers, seoul garden, sakae sushi, international buffet, ani buffet under de sun!!! plus: dim sum. yeah! tts for rite nw. =)
my goal in life: to dine in all restaurants at least once. =)
我.爱.水.母.头
20:17 |
Saturday, May 19, 2007
did nth todae. bt nt happie either.
lookin forward to tmr breakfast. fried noodles n curry chicken. mum's food rocks sumtyms...
life isnt gd.
tink of him...
tink of her...
我.爱.水.母.头
21:43 |
18th May... blog abt ytd first. =)
我.爱.水.母.头
20:46 |
Thursday, May 17, 2007
i tink... perhaps...
okie. perhaps i shld really start reflectin on myself. i sae dis everytym but dere's no action. gt tok, no action. haiz. tues 3.1 retest, i hope i can pass though i m sort of well prepared but nt confident in de pper. n todae's 4.0, it s a gone case!!! i dun wan dis to happen. wat's happening to me?!! i m so well prepared but [nt as prepared as 3.0 though] dere's lotsa careless mistakes everywhere n some i even ans wrongly. it's nt tt i dun haf de knowledge but i jus lack de skills in ans qns. sianz. i alwaes study hardest for physics test nt bcos i 'lik' phy. but it's bcos i dun wanna go for retest. but. i onli succeed once. de first test, i even haf to go for 1.2 in order to pass de test. sad case rite? perhaps i shld really sit dwn n start studyin very hard for my mid-yr. i hope i can score at least a C for math n phy n A for chem. as for GP, a D will b enuff.
i find tt i m nt eating enuff cheese (read in chinese: it's knowledge.). i am havin a hard tym doin GP essay. but i gt no tym to eat cheese animore. to me, one bite isnt enuff. i haf to eat de whole tink n chew b4 i can get to really taste de cheese. sianz.
n de tink which i m darn pissed of abt is him. i jus called him ytd. finally his fone get tru aft 2 daes. he went bac malaysia to c doctor cos he had a really deep cut on his hand. so i was being very nice to call and shower concern on him. n u guess wat? he scolded me. was darn pissed of lar. he tell me nt to kip gg dwn n look for him cos he gt nth to tok to me abt. thnks lor. n tt's wat u call frenx?! n he told me to wait for his call. wat is he takin me for? wen he 'nids' me, he wil kip callin n disturbin me. but every single tym, i will b dere to help him. but wen i wan find him, he will nt b 100% dere for me. haiz. but i've gt no choice. forgt abt it. dis friendship can onli laz til dis yr i guess. we'll all grow up on dae. move on n forget... perhaps tts de best.
it's bin one wk since i c him...
it's bin one wk n 1 dae she left us...
我.爱.水.母.头
14:43 |
Friday, May 11, 2007
rest in peace minloo. i will NEVER forget you...
was happily outside n enjoying myself wifout knowing her death. it was til qiu kun msg me. first tym i read de msg, i was tinkin what has her funeral gotta do wif me cos i misread. tot who was de person who died. den i read again. so i tot sth wasnt rite. i called her bac immediately. but no one ans. den i read de msg for third tym. i saw bel's name. n i called her immediately. n it's confirm tt she died. y din dey tel me earlier? for tt moment, my mind was filled wif qns. i was tinkin how n why she died. but i dun feel lik crying. so i went on to do my stuff. was tinkin abt de tinks tt we did in de past...
was it all planned??? i dunno... she was telling me all de negative tinks wen we laz met up. i forgt hw many wks ago. but its definitely b4 her grandmother's death. wen we met up, she gaf me alot of presents. telling me tt it is for my dis yr's bdae, christmas, nxt yr's bdae n so on. wen she first told me, i was lik: okie. cos we're in diff schs nw, so its abit hard to mit up. it's alrite to gif me belated bdae presents or wat. but de longer she tok, de more i find sth amiss. but i was lik: er... okie. i was tinkin. y she gaf me all at once. but i dun bother too much. i jus wan to enjoy de tym we spend tgt. n she kip tokin abt hw de end of de world is cumin n stuff... wen she came bac frm her grandmother's funeral, she msg me again. i was having my lessons at tt tym. so i tell her to rest well n dun tink too much. i tink tt was de laz tym we msg each other.
if onli i culd turn bac tym. i culd haf done much more. i shld haf shown more concern in de past. i shld haf treasure de tyms n daes we spent tgt. if onli...
i FINALLY understand wat it means to cherish, to love, to forgive, to forget, to be more tolerant, to be more caring, to be more understanding, ...
dun alwaes take tinks for granted. wait til one dae wen u lost it den u start to regret. lik me. i regret onli now.
to all dose who read my blog: cherish the people around you. no matter whether u lik de person or not. u will b affected by tt person in one wae or another.
she left behind all love ones on 9/5/07.
我.爱.水.母.头
18:54 |
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Happy Birthdae David. =)
我.爱.水.母.头
17:49 |
Friday, May 04, 2007
my heart is shattered... into millions.
i find tt i sort of enjoy lessons nw more den de past. y? i dunno. i onli noe i m tryin very hard to get A for all subjects. its kinda impossible. phy prac is officially over for me. i shld sae SPA skill A is okie for me. nt too easy. but nt hard either. cos it's double weighted, i hope i can get at least 14 out of 20 for prac component. den i m closer to my A in A lvl.
if my grades kip improving at de expense of my happiness, i m willing to slog it out for dis yr, at least, its worth it. nth is more impt den my grades now til de end of de yr. but pls return me my happiness at de end of de yr.
tmr is his bdae. 5/5. yes. 0505. it's an easy date to remb. called him todae. but he din pick up my call. or rather. his fone was off. haiz. let's c hw tmr bahx. n jean havent msg me. sianz. so darn pissed of wif laz min tinks.
dun gif me laz min tinks n laz min stuff. i jus hate it darn much.
~life sux~
我.爱.水.母.头
22:23 |