It's my birthdae todae!!! yeah! happie n sweet 18th bdae. =D
ytd! can sae 'happiest' moment of my life. nt tt perfect though. he msged me at 11:28 suddenly. askin me to reply him. haha wan to go out. so i agreed immediately. den i msg jia min saying cant go watch death note wif her le. arghz! i feel so bad. but i wan to go out wif david. so no choice. called him immediately aft my class end. mit him at his hse de void deck. reach ard 1:20. den i scared him. finally. took bus to je. we were chatting. lol. tellin him abt my sch n de surprise test on laz period. where i onli gt 2-3 out of 13 ans correct. den he bought newsppers n sat dere lookin for jobs. lol larx. den i kip tokin to him n fan-ing him. til he really gets very very fan. he ask me call mel so i called. den ltr wen i put dwn fone, he ask me msg her nt to cum lol larx. but in de end, mel came. so we wen orchard. walked ard wisma. den david go pub interview. we sat under de sun n wait for him. crazy gals. i looked at de birds. so cute larx. den wen taka. where he found no job. sian lo. den wen harbourfront. alite at dunno where den chng purple line. wen to de wrong side cos of him. play til blur. wen we reach, he ask me go second floor walk walk n wait for him. he go tok to his gf cos i dun wan to follow him n find his gf. den we wen vivo fr de second floor. to toysRus. nt much teddy bear though. sian. wen to find st.james power station. exit fr de bac door. den i wen to step on de water. lol. den kip playin til we quarrel cos of an application form. i was askin him to go for interview. den he dun wan. he want to go clarke quay. so we quarrelled. den he sae he wan to go home liaoz. so i kip tinkin of waes nt to let him go. i suggest him go eat. cos i hungry. den we wen vivomart. he bought instant noodles. i bought nth. was askin him to walk faster wen we walked thru de 'DKNY' section. he laugh so loud larx. tts de loudest laugh tt i hear all dae. gd lo. den pay n leave. was tellin him abt de tables n chairs at vivo. den told him dere's an old chang kee nearby. lol. both of us lik de squid head dere. so we gif each other a five which cn b heard cus its really too darn loud. n my hand really hurt aft tt. lik i jus gaf a piece of metal a five. lol. den wen candy empire. look at choco. bac to harbourfront. find his gf. waited for him til i rotted. den bac to je. told him many tinks on de train. he said tt i m lik a kid cos my hand is very itchy. touch dis n tt. i kip jumpin here n dere. dunno y ytd i walk so farni de. ate KFC. wahh! surprised at hw fast he ate. 1 chicken, 1 burger, 1 coleslaw, 1 whipped potato, 1 cup of drink n my fries! i onli ate 1 chicken, 1 coleslaw, 1 drink n a lil bit of fries. n i m slower den him. wen bac to zingdo. he tok. i wen toilet. den find him. sir ask where his gf is den i pop out. lol larx. den he cont tokin at cashier dere lo. n dis sir noe tt i 'lik' him. den he sae david cum awhile den i pop out liaoz. haha. so i was crapping abt my fortune telling. n make everyone laugh. den we wen off liaoz. askin him to sae 4 words to me. n he told me: zhao(3) sheng(1) gui(4) zi(3). i immediately lol. til de whole street de pple cn look at me. den he told me all sorts of crap. but finally sae out de happie bdae which i longed to hear. lol. he was jus playin wif he. he actually noes wat i wan to hear. abit embarrassin. look ard n played wif more toys. den okie. home tym. suddenly feel lik eating ice cream. so david treat. lol. den we sit dwn n eat n tok. den wen bac to old place n sit. til his bus came n he wen off first. arghz! mis him!!! hope he will call me real soon. haha. his bdae wishes lik new yr greeting lik tt. lol. but aniwae, thnks! i had lotsa fun wif him. though i pissed him off more den thrice.
horoscope for dis wk is really tru... hope to haf more of such gg out in future. =)
lazly, thnks to all dose who sent me bdae wishes. =) n happie bdae to myself once again! =D
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23:11 |
Monday, January 15, 2007
wat a memorable dae... =D
todae is kinda a memorable dae for me aft my bdae in yr 2005.
first! my tymtable is chnged again. so stupid larx. becum GP first tink in de mornin. which was lik: no air con! cos our sch policy is nt to on air con for de first period. which is lik fr 8-9.. except for lectures. which i hope tt will b first period of de dae. cos wil haf air con. =) den PC. ran 6 rounds in total. 1 round warm up n 2.4km run. my legs jus ache from runnin. but i m nt panting. had a big pau n a packet of soya milk durin my first break. den bread for de 2nd break. den stupid chem prac for 2 hrs. den tcher drag 1/2 hr aft tt. haiz. den came home. cos bel dun wan go out wif me. breeks! i wan to c him! den she drag tym. bathe, chat n watched tv. went sheng siong aft tt. bel drag tym til 8 plus lo. sianz. i sort of noe tt she isnt rite todae. nt her usual self. hmmx. den i came home to find tt linn, zhi n joyce were in my hse. hehex. sorry... i walk too fast. den spoil de mood liaoz. lol. sang me bdae song. de cake was fr secret recipe! thnks! =) den stil haf de large bdae card. alot of balloons, party poppers. dinner was sumptous. hor fun, fried bee hoon, fried chicken, fries, drumlets n seafood tempura from shihlin. arghz! joyce wen home aft eatin de cake cos she nid to study for test tmr. hz n bel too. arghz! so guilty. haiz. bel sumore is first lesson. at 8. hz at least gt 4 hr break cn study. had dinner til 9 plus den we wen to my rm n play. mahjong. til 10 plus den dey wen home. y cant todae b fridae? den everyone can stay longer or rather stayover. arghz! i wish tt tym will stop at tt very moment. i miz de good old daes...
yes! n i miz him too! so much so tt i resume to de old me. cry wen i miz him. tot todae cn go breeks. but hell no. haiz. are we really tt nt fated to mit? my laz hope. he will call me on de 17th, if nt de 18th if he rembs my bdae. n i hope so... i really miz him... has friendship turn into luv? i dunno. i hope yes n i hope no. 50-50. no less, no more.
n bel gave me a bdae pressie todae. i wil nt open it til thursdae. more atmosphere okie...
countdwn to my bdae: 3 daes.
我.爱.水.母.头
23:59 |
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
haiz...
todae's a wed. kinda slack. onli 3 lesson. GP was kinda fun. n chem as well. but phy tutorial my heart wasnt dere. jus dunno y. mayb i din read up de notes n din do tutorials. tts y. haiz. i find it getting harder n harder to cope wif de studies. i dunno whether to gif up anot. seriously dunno. i jus feel tt i will nt do well in A. perhaps i really played too much laz yr. haiz. i tink i cant salvage myself animore. i dun haf faith and confidence in myself ani longer. no longer from dis moment onwards. my life is in a total mess.
i seriously nid sumone to guide me along, esp in my studies in dis period of tym. who shld i approach? i hope i m rich. i really do. who doesnt? dis wae, i can hire tutors to teach me in all de subjects all over again. haiz. hardly haf enuff tym to practice qns. cos i m usually tired. n i really m. concentration lvl low. n i m getting poorer n poorer as daes pass. but i m workin! m i nt? but y haf i nt save up ani?
countdwn to my bdae: 8 daes.
我.爱.水.母.头
19:42 |
Monday, January 08, 2007
haiz. wat a dae.
todae is my first mondae. practical lesson first. was pratically doin nth. den PC. ran for 10 minx which i almoz fainted due to de intense heat on me. but i jus carried on wif de PC. exercises are easy but due to de heat, it becums more diff. den break. ate chicken n nugget. den lectures. math. finally i understand wat de tchers are tokin! n econs too. though i dun really understand de graph though. was msgin for de whole of todae. wahh! slack larx. den chem tutorial. was pratically doin nth again. my new CT miss michelle quek, was so monotonous. haiz. almoz fell aslp during her lesson. n she kip tokin n tokin n we haf to kip takin notes. but we are nt auditory learners!!! haiz. yr 2 is tough. punishment is different. den gt 20 mins off early. sianz. i really dunno watta do. walk ard sch. hmmx. den wen zingdo eat. chicken noodle wif xtra chicken. =) thnks to kenny. n de soup was very oily. thnks lor!
n i did sth really bold todae. tt is to msg him! wahh! i m seriously nt afraid tt his gf reply my sms. but i m afraid tt she call me up. arghz! did i did de rite tink by msgin him? hmmx. miss him really much. arghz! aniwae, it's over! shlden haf ani probs liao. =) let's hope he reply me.
countdwn to my bdae: 10 daes
我.爱.水.母.头
20:22 |
Sunday, January 07, 2007
woke up at 12 todae. read a set of notes for 2 hrs plus. basically was slackin. haiz. tired. den nw piain tutorial cos nid to pass up tmr.
我.爱.水.母.头
16:15 |
miss him loads...
countdwn to my bdae: 11 daes.
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00:35 |
Saturday, January 06, 2007
haiz...
fridae woke up at 6:05 for sch. previous daes 5:45 cos nid to acc yu huan to sch. she study jj arts. 20 mins more of slp. oso tired. den study n study. wahh! PC first tink in de mornin. ran 5 rounds den take height n weight. my legs almoz broke larx. de muscle feel lik tearin while having chem lecture. but i lost 2 kg! =) (i tink i lied to myself again. jus tt i din eat breakfast.) another tink. i hate econs tutorial larx. 1.5 hr sumore! haiz. J2 is more abt chiongin syllabus n revision. haiz. no diff fr takin A lvl. i m determined to study harder den O lvl. i dun wanna regret. okie. wen to find my shoes aft sch. but haiz. wen bac je to buy de old one which i saw. sianz. buy til dunno which pair to buy liaoz. i dun wan a too lasting one. so tt can wear more, tear more n buy more. hee. den wen work. sianz. todae host n help mdm translate den cashier. haha. lol. my job alwaes slack slack de. tonite sales $1400. darn gd larx. mornin 400+ onli. haiz. y lik tt? if mornin 700+, can haf 1/2 hr more pay. my rite eyelid was twitching de whole dae. so sth gd shld happen. haiz. n indeed. i miz david's call. he called mel oso. mel oso mis his call. haiz. y did our friendship becum lik tt? wen did it start to becum lik tt? my heart hurts alot. i m waiting for him to call bac. but i doubt he wil. no courage to call his hp. haiz. david... david... david... pls call bac.
n i prayed to god twice or thrice abt sth. wishing tt... i feel tt i m very selfish or rather possessive. haiz. god wil nt grant me dis wish de. cos it's wrong to do dis. but i dun care. haiz... pls...
will b gg breeks on mondae. hopefully to c him n to b served by him.
countdwn to my bdae: 12 daes.
我.爱.水.母.头
00:01 |
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
de first dae of sch. yr 2! yeah!
todae is de first dae of sch. i kip lookin at my fone n starin at his pic. though he isnt beside me, i wil remb all his teachins. he tot me to b bolder n braver. he was de one who tot me to grow up. learnt alot fr him. i wan to learn cookin fr him sum dae too! but hope he is willin to teach me sth. start a new yr wif kinda lotsa encouragement. i really hope tt i wil nt do badly for A's so tt i wil nt let everyone who support me dwn. esp myself. wat's over is over. no use cryin over spilt milk. shall start afresh. improve myself to greater ht. lesson was okie though. kinda boring dis yr larx. todae end sch at 1. no diff as compared to laz yr. n dis yr tymtable is gd! i luv it. hope wil nt haf much chnges.
mondae - 3 end
tuesdae - 2
wednesdae - 1
thursdae - 3:30
fridae - 1:30.
dis yr gt cultural studies. sian larx. i feel lik skipping it sumdaes lehx. hmmx. n i tink i will.
wen to bank aft sch. wahh! darn long q. waited for abt 45 mins b4 my turn. sianz. made a POSB card todae. hee. was so happie. i grow up liaoz! =) wen to look for my sch shoes. walk alot of shops. finally found de design i wan. but no size. sad larx. i nid to find elsewhere for my shoes liaoz. den ate n came home. haiz. bought nth. except for concession pass.
haiz. hw i wish tt i wun grow up. i wan to play play n play! playin rox more den anitink else. haiz. but who wil play wif me? really wan to get out of de studyin life very sn. slackin n playin is gd sumtyms. david. i miz david... i really wanna go crazy wif him. haiz. arghz! perhaps i shld really get out of my playin life sn. playin cant let me survive foreva...
countdwn to my bdae: 15 daes.
我.爱.水.母.头
20:09 |
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
nt a really gd dae though.
i stil tink of him. in de kitchen. esp wen tinks are unfair. i hope tt he'll b ard. ard to gif me advice n support. i hope i cn c him again. miz him. miz him. cum bac n find me pls! i wan to tok n paly wif him...
countdwn to my bdae: 16 daes.
我.爱.水.母.头
00:53 |
Monday, January 01, 2007
happie new yr! =D
suddenly feel lik sayin dis. friends, no matter hw gd dey r to u / no matter hw close u all are, can onli accompany u for a period of tym in ur life. dey cant b wif u foreva. nth is foveva n absolutely nth. best friends leave footprints in ur heart. gd friends make u happie n help u kill tym. ordinary friends brush pass u.
y do i sae dis? dere wil b reasons...
jus 2 daes ago, i wan to forget him even b4 we mit for de laz tym. n i m determined to. but i sort of chng my views. or rather, i dun wan to forget him. i did nt regret takin foto wif him de laz dae we mit. i did nt regret gg dwn to c him. i did nt regret tt i chnged my decision of nt to forget him. even though i noe tt we may nt meet again. nt in de near future, nt in de future. we may nt even mit til de dae we part de earth. but i m hoping to mit him again. play again. lik i used to b de 'idiot' n he being de 'dead david'. his acting as de sales person, gifin out of flyers, playin wif us, tokin to us, showin us concern to tellin us abt life n lots more... i wil nvr forget all dese tinks tt he's done. til we were trapped at orchard, eating at je mac at midnite n seeing us cry. though he told me tt he was shocked tt i even cried tt nite... on dis festive season, i stil tink of him, i stil mis him, i stil wan to c him again, i stil wan to play wif him, i stil wan lots more fr him... i jus haf onli one wish... i wan to c him again n again n again... pls return us bac to our old tyms. de great tyms tt we used to haf. no matter gd or bad. laughin or cryin. playing or hittin. tokin or scolding. jus enjoy him being ard me. though i sim to b able to let go, but i stil miz him alot. alot. alot.
tok to mel 2 daes ago [30/12/06] on fone. she was kinda surprised tt i wan to forget him. entirely. n tts me 2 daes ago. she tot i was de one being most emotional. yes! i m. i m de one who cried lik hell wen he leave, i m de one who cry wen tinkin of him, i m de one who cry wen tokin abt him, i m de one who cry wen walkin pass de place where we haf common memories. i m de one who kip bugging to c him. i m de one who wanted to go breeks n find him. but, i m nt de one who initiated to go out so late at nite to find him. sumtyms, sum tinks haf to let go. no pt holdin on to one's belief. tts hw i came to understand tt tinks cant b foreva. n tt we cant mit again.
mel oso gaf up waiting for his call, waiting for our nxt mitin. on de fone, she sound lik she stil wan more mitings wif him. but todae [1/1/07], she sim lik totallie gaf up. gaf up waiting for his call. though i was de one who wanted to put behind everytink first n move on, de stupid me stil wait for his call almost everynite. stil try all sorts of waes jus to c him. stil tinkin of him n wanting to c him. tt dae where we laz met as trio, [29/12/06], all of us understand tt it wil b our laz miting. n we may nvr get to c one another again. n aft todae, or rather tt dae, i gotta noe tt mel is nt workin ltr. so... suddenly, i sense tt tt wil b de end of de 3 of us. n wen david said tt he may leave de company ani min fr nw, my heart totallie sank. totallie. nt his departure saddens me. but de tot of nt contactin me n de tot of nt mitin again realli saddens me...
i feel tt all is nt de same animore. wen i c hw he played wif his colleagues at breeks, i feel tt he totallie chnged. nt de old david tt i once knew. nvm. let money buy all de memories. i will save up from now on. shall nt spend unnecessarily. n i shall b firm wif my decision dis tym round. yes. dis tym round. i m old enough to b tinkin for myself n make my own decisions.
~tts all. de grown up me aft 12 mn...
countdwn to my bdae: 17 daes.
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03:11 |