i'm bac!!!
dun ask me 2 qns. first: how's my A lvl. i can tell u here. basically its nt as difficult as i tink wuld be. but i haf gt NO CONFIDENCE at all. second: dun ask me if i haf a job. cos i gt no job at all. wuld u lik to recommend me one? :p
aft 2 mths. i m finally bac. kayys. my 2 mths of studyin is stil okie. dun feel stress at all. or onli minimal amt of stress. dunno y. haha. mayb is cos i haf no confidence at all. aft de whole paper, i felt tt if i culd study harder, if i can kip myself calm, i can really b beta. some stupid mistakes which i did made me cant forgive myself foreva. n i dun tink i ever will forgive myself for all de mistakes tt i've made since young.
A lvl officially ended for me on 20th Nov, wen out everydae. out wif my class on tuesdae aft pper. den wed to sun wen bras basah. sold all de bks which i dun wan. but din make much though. so here's an advice: dun sell ur books unless u confirm guarantee plus chop u dun wan those books and dunnit dose bks animore. if nt, u will regret. aft gg bras basah, i walk to bugis junction and watch dvd. haha. why why love. huan huan ai by rainie yang cheng lin. haha. so in 'love' wif her now. dunno y. haha. den cum home watch youtube. but... de ending isnt wat i tot. abit disappointed larx. wen for a few job interviews. but i dun tink i will get one. haiz. tts life.
pack my room ytd n todae. i tink i do tinks quite fast larx. use onli a few hrs to clear whole room. i tink is cos i din throw my tinks anihow bahx. but nt really happie though. cos it's nt as clean as i wuld tink. read quite alot of bks recently. i wan to enrich myself while i wait for a job and b4 uni. haha.
i cleared all de stuff which i dunnit. maths practice books, worksheets, journals n of course stuff from st.john. read thru all entries of my journal. kinda sad larx. my life has changed. perhaps tts part n parcel of life. was tinkin aloud to myself. why can i hold on to wat i wan, why can i bear or rather 'suffer the consequences' of my choice in de past but i m nt able to do it now? its hard to hold onto a tink for a long tym. haiz. pls gimme bac de old me. perhaps i will b happier. i cant believe tt i really joined st john and participated in alot of activities during my sec sch daes. given a choice now, i dun tink i will ever do tt again. tot of de pain n suffering n on de account tt i dun wan to pursue tt dream animore.
*i found yang cheng lin's blog!!! hehex.*
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